We really haven't talked since then, but I have already thought things over and have decided to finally end things and talk to him tomorrow, on our 61st month.
But God seemed to have a better plan. Just as when I was on my morning routine of checking some mails, I found this:
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Dear Kriska,
Don't give up. Life rewards those who persevere.
I promise you that if you don't give up, ultimately, you will find that open door. It has been waiting for you.
Your Door Opener,
God
P.S. When the going gets tough, the tough get going. Kriska , I made you tough.
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Great advice, right? And I guess I'll be bad if I won't obey what He wants. ;p
Whenever you feel confused, know that God is always there to help you. He may not always give you the answers instantly but I assure you, He will give you the answers at the right place..at the right time.. :)