This day marks the end of my 5th year with M ark..Whew! Finally! Why do I sound so unhappy? Haha! ;p
Well, it actually started out fine. I can still remember talking to Mark on our 4th year anniversary about our plans for the coming year..our plans for this big event.
We started out on our journey and everything seemed to be going well. We ran over some bumps but we managed to get across all of them. There were times when we got lost but we were able to find the way.
The ride to our 5th year has not really gone too far yet, we were not even half-way through our journey, when I discovered something which eventually turned out to be one of my biggest nightmares. And at that very moment, all I really wanted was to get off. Too bad I wasn't able to..maybe because my seat belt was fastened too tightly, maybe because I was afraid to be lost, or maybe because I just didn't want to. I really didn't know what got into me.
I must admit though that even if I chose to continue to be with him in the journey, there were still times when I thought of jumping off. But Mark has held on to me until the end. I know, i know..every being with a sane mind would have just left him all alone. But well yes, I guess I'm crazy and I don't care! ;p
Honestly, for the past years that I've been with Mark, I must admit that our 5th year is the one that I hate the most. But even if that is the case, my heart can't really seem to have room for regrets.
I remember someone tell me: "Don't be sad that it's over..just be glad that it happened". Some good things just never really last..well yeah, this is so true..but bad things don't also last for long..so whenever things don't turn out so well or whenever I remember all the sad things that happened, I just tell myself: "Don't be sad that it happened..just be glad that it's over". :)
I know that I may not have loved him more the past year, but one thing I know is for sure...I never loved him any less..
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